I’m going to start this thought with one of my favorite quotes.
Elder Neil A Maxwell has said. “In striving for ultimate submission, our wills constitute all we really have to give God… The usual gifts and their derivatives we give to Him could be stamped justifiably “Return to Sender,” with a capital S. Even when God receives this one gift in return, the fully faithful will receive “all that [He] hath” (D&C 84:38). What an exchange rate!”
I guess what I really hope is that as I learn to let God be in control of my life, that doesn’t mean that I sit back and let Him be the puppeteer. It means we are consciously choosing to become better. We are gratefully accepting His will. We are seeking the answers to the questions “what lack I yet?” and listening to the gently answers that follow.
The evening when I heard Elder Lawrence talk about what lack I yet that I was driving in a vehicle. When I silently asked the question to myself, a flood of inadequacies went pouring through my mind and I felt so depressed and deflated. A little quiet voice began to teach me.
“Do you really think that I, who loves you so much, would flood you with an overwhelming list of things to do?”
“But you sound so similar,” I said.
“Why in that talk when others asked the question would I say, “Clean your room. drive slower, ponder before you pray. You know that I am no respecter of persons right?”
“Then why would my answers to you be any different than to them? If my servant challenged you to do this why would I make it impossible and deflating?”
Just in case this teaching moment in my girlfriend’s SUV didn’t sink in I discovered this in rereading Elder Lawrence’s talk “The Holy Ghost doesn’t tell us to improve everything at once. If He did, we would become discouraged and give up. The Spirit works with us at our own speed, one step at a time, or as the Lord has taught, “line upon line, precept upon precept..”. It’s a very incremental easy baby steps to the next step.
So if you, sometimes like me, ask this question and an answer that seems impossible to live up to arrives–consider the source. If it isn’t an easy change that seems possible try asking again. Then first ask that the loud overbearing voice be taken away so the spirit can quietly, lovingly, and gently guide you to the right answer.